The servant grew up before God—a scrawny seedling, a scrubby plant in a parched field. There was nothing attractive about him, nothing to cause us to take a second look. He was looked down on and passed over, a man who suffered, who knew pain firsthand. One look at him and people turned away. We looked down on him, thought he was scum. But the fact is, it was our pains he carried— our disfigurements, all the things wrong with us. We thought he brought it on himself, that God was punishing him for his own failures. But it was our sins that did that to him, that ripped and tore and crushed him—our sins! He took the punishment, and that made us whole. Through his bruises we get healed. We’re all like sheep who’ve wandered off and gotten lost. We’ve all done our own thing, gone our own way. And God has piled all our sins, everything we’ve done wrong, on him, on him.
I Can't feel God anymore? Is he still there?
Youth for Christ
A lot of people ask this same question. Have you really lost God or do you just feel like you have?
Of course, if you've neglected Him for a long time, you may be out of communication in a serious way. But if you reestablish communication with Him, He is going to respond.
Think of it this way. Some day you may be standing saying your vows to the one you love and you soon will gently kiss the one you've just married. After the brief ceremony, the photographs, the cake cutting, and the reception, you'll drive off for your honeymoon. It will be an unreal, beautiful, unique experience. You'll finally be together alone—able finally to fully express your love for each other.
However, a few weeks later, after living together in the nitty-gritty of marriage, the relationship isn't quite the same anymore. It's still beautiful and, hopefully, still a love relationship, but it's more daily. When you wake up in the morning, you won't always breathe deeply and whisper, "Ah, my love, let me hold your hand and dream." More likely, you'll stagger drowsily to the bathroom to wash your face and fix your hair, as you do now.
Yet, you're still married. You still love. You're still together, even if the emotions aren't quite as powerful as the ones you had when you drove away from the reception. Back then you may have thought all your problems were solved, but in actuality, your marriage may now enable you to face the problems as a couple and therefore help you a great deal.
At the same time, however, marriage also gives you a whole new set of problems.
The more you share with each other, the more you feel joy together. It's the same with God. When you pray, when you read His Word, when you share with your friends, God will do beautiful things in your life. At times He will give you a wonderful sense of being in His presence—but not always, and not always with deep, honeymoon-type emotions.
If you still feel you can't find God, remember this. It is your will that He is interested in. You should say with conviction, "I will ask Jesus to take over my life. I will obey what He tells me. I will learn more in His book the Bible. I will start specific actions right now to be the kind of person I know He wants me to be. I will yield my body to Him."
If you truthfully say all that, then no matter how lost you may feel, He will be working in you, making you more mature. Development and growth will be there, whether or not you always feel close to Him.
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The New You- Harold L Myra